For a start, this post will not specifically address the most HIP and TRENDY political situations happened in Indonesia, it is more or less just a wistful thinking.
I’m not a fan of political world, to begin with. Politics are something that can only be understood when you are involved and invested greatly in it. As a mere commoner, all of these and those going in political stage is almost like an act; a theatrical happening.
However, at this particular afternoon, I stumble upon this video that talked about depression. How this person handle her depression well enough to live further despite all the unfortunate circumstances. This sounds horribly disconnected with politics but, strangely, it’s not that disconnected inside my brain.
Depression is something that wormed inside your head. It’s slick, it’s slippery, also vicious. When you get under its veil, every single thing in this world will be robbed from their color and you will feel very alone, very sad, very unworthy. If this happened for a long time, it’s not uncommon to think about suicide.
Politics, in the other hand, wormed up inside a country and also became a veil that you can’t get rid of. Because once they started, everything will fall like and endless play of domino stacks. When you get offended, you offend back. When you get attacked, you attack back. There are hardly any other way. Do you think a country will destroy itself when its get out of hand? Does anybody will go out and wipe out the entire civilization to get rid of this?
As this Youtuber talked about the depression she still need to overcome, she also said that while you can suppress the bad thought when depressed, you cannot get rid of it completely. Even if you get therapy and declared clean, it can always come back to you as you encounter another frustrating event in your life. This is why, rather than denying that you have a depression, it will only benefit you if you accept the reality that you have a depression and you accept to live with it forever. So, trying to get rid of it will not get you any good, it will only drive you to another insanity. Instead, try to formulate the best way to RESPONSE when it happens.
It needs practice, a lot of practice, but you cannot give up because this is the life that you live. That is in anyway just like me, a mere commoner, who live in a country with hot-and-cold political situation; to small to just go there and put balance in everything. I hardly understand the issues, I hardly want to even read the news because of that. However, I accept that it’s something that is bound to happen in any country. I think, it’s the perk of being in a higher ground: being a politician is, I mean. The perk of being in a lower ground is, of course, ignorance. HA.
Well, you know, what we need to practice more is how we should stop to be provoked by this political issues; to see how a problem stood the ground from many angles. This is the hardest thing to do because you will find media blowing the news (or not-so-news) around that make us confused whether we need to believe or not. I even have got to this point where I read news as if it’s a novel. I never consider it true because I don’t see it with my own eyes and hear it with my own ears. There are always a chance that the news are made to defame character. So rather than believing in them, I read them as a supplement; something fictional based on true story. I play detective by seeing it from any angle, putting up all the puzzle on my own.
Indonesia is not bad, I think. I have long started to accept that I live in this kind of country, in this kind of world. The only thing that I can do is to see the positive side of everything. How do you stay insane with all of this crazy stunts? How do you cope with all the news and hoaxes in your country?